Sorta Like Cabin Fever

So I'm getting sort of like cabin fever. When I'm finally able to get the green light to at least walk and swim, T.S. Faye decides to come rain on my parade, literally. Running and working out provided a little vacation for my mind and soul sometimes. Where even with someone, I was able to move along in quiet and be alone with my thoughts.  It gave me much needed space, especially times like these when things get stressful. And things are stressful, I'm not happy with any situation right now and am dealing with feelings of being taken advantage of and not being able to exert that extra energy and all this tension I'm carrying is not making this easy to move past. Usually I can work it out and by the time I've worked up a good sweat, I'm over whatever is bugging me and I can deal with whatever is waiting when I walk in the door. This has truly been a test of my patience. I'd say I'm weathering the storm quite nicely considering how I want to explode. I've managed to work out, in my mind, with all the idle time, that I tend to compromise over things that I really shouldn't and that I internalize a lot, I'm quick to lash out at others but hold my often sharp tongue when it comes to friends in an effort to not upset them and/or ruffle feathers even if it means compromising and inconveniencing myself. I need to get out again all this idle time is making me crazy.